december

I've just realised that it's actually December now. We went on the road trip on the first and we started the day in such a hurry that I didn't think much of it and now it's all hitting me that this year is actually going to be over in a few weeks and it kind of scares me.

Usually a start to a new year would excite me rather, but this year one huge thing about why I'm scared is because you're not here. Makes me think back to when we started this year together. And now, you have to go in even before the year is over. Everything has been happening in such a haste lately it almost seems unreal. I do this thing over and over again where I wish it was unreal and you'd be back by my side but then I'm hit by the fact again. And I do it over and over.

I guess I'll just have to look at the bright side. And I will. I just need some time to get used to living without you. But trust me I can do it. And it won't completely be a life without you. I wouldn't even want to imagine a life without you. Really, it's only 22 months. By then we would be over a thousand days at least, and that excites me. I'll keep counting and everyday as I type in the next number on the counter on my screen, I'll be missing you.