So. I sort of concluded that I was gonna put of blogging until I was reunited with my laptop but then I remembered I like blogging ^^ and more importantly it was reading A's blog entries that triggered it and I felt the need to say:
A public thank you, a big fat one, to all of MG's and my friends.
He wouldn't really like me to share but it's rather obvious that he develops some kind of a fear, mainly to do with the relationship between him and his friends outside of army. You can't blame him, you know, lost contacts and for such a long period of time. For the purpose of comforting him there and then, was to tell him that no matter what happens I'll be there for him so he really has not a lot to worry about. But I was to thoughtless to consider the truth, which was that they care for him as much as I do.
Wow I'm getting too cheesy for my liking. But you all know what I mean...
One particular story about a girl named Angular touched me so I wanted to express some sort of. Blab. I dunno. Thanks A.
And to you. I sincerely hope you remember what I said to you and understand how I'm feeling. In reality it's more like wanting to know how you're doing and if you're adjusting well at all, if you've made any friends etc. But these things I can guess you're doing pretty well because you're perfectly capable of all those things. But more importantly what bothers me is if you're having any doubts. These thoughts can drive you mad if there isn't anyone to lead you out of it and I have no way of making sure of that for now because let's face it, I can't even be sure if my letter is on the way to Korea.
For now, I'll just be waiting as I said I'll be.
spending time feels crazy. I feel like I'm only waiting again. This is so natural to me that I don't realise what I'm doing until I've wasted a great amount of time waiting for the next thing on the calendar, which actually is "getting on the plane to nz" and that's 2 weeks away. And it feels ironic because I've done exactly the same sitting at home, for the day to fly here and I can't wait to go back. I kind of feel like I need to apologise to hk. @__@ okay I may be going a little nuts from too much sleep/lack of sleep.
The thing with sleep, in fact, I don't know which it is anymore because, I sleep too much as I lack sleep from not sleeping, and I would have not slept due to too much sleep previously and then it just goes around in a loop. I don't know how to fix it, I just kind of have this idea that it'll be fixed when I get home. Which in reality it probably won't.
I miss too many people at once.
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