오늘같이 이런소리 많이 듣지만
오늘같이 이렇게 와닿은적 없었던거같애
미안해요
내가 생각이 짧았던거같애
더 잘하고는 싶은데
그런건 정말 그렇다는 생각뿐이었나봐
이제서야 상대방이 보기엔
내가 노력하고있지 않았다는게
당연했던거같아
이순간 지금 이마음 기억해야하는데
아침에 눈뜨면 사라지는 다짐따위
더이상 안해야 하는데
하루아침에 고쳐지진 않겠지
그러니까 매일매일 기억해야하는데
그럴려면 특히 네도움이 필요할거 같아
내가 삐뚤어 지려고 할때
바로잡아주리라고 믿을게
너만큼 내마음 이해할 사람도 없을테니까
나 잘할게.
노력할게.
약속할게.
6.30.2009
HOLIDAYS
I guess winter breaks aren't as exciting. I don't know, it's not like during the Summer that I'll do much more stuff except that in summer we can read at the beach.
Oooh new steinlager edge. Want to try.
Anyway I was talking about winter. So since I have a few weeks I made a list of things I want to do. Do you want to know? Why, you really really do? OKAY !
+ exercise: because everyone gets fat in winter. And being in archi is really not good for my back. So I will need to be more flexible in order for my bones to not collapse very soon.
+ sewing: I have a million things to fix up and resize and make. Which i haven't started yet. Don't worry, I'll get to it soon..........
+ save money: which is contradicting to my next bullet point
+ shop: I want a new phone and I am planning on using my fabric voucher because i hear fabric is on sale and and and I want the country road shoes ! Yum
+ blog and cy more: pshshtt yeah good luck
+ read: I plan on finishing it. Finally.
There you go. Bahaha.
Section: Nicole
And there, a section about Nicole. LOL okay jokes. Okay I'm gonna talk about Nicole. Wow feels like Edmund should be here reading this. But that would be weird because then he would know we make fun of him. Omgsh omgsh. Anyway, what I realised about Nicole today is, how much she suits the bum look. Yeah it should be how she looks everyday, no? lololol. I THINK SO YEAH.
Man it's cold. It's 12 degrees. Aha.
I'd put a picture in but I can't be bothered. Hm. So Ill give you this:
Really into him, again, at the moment. After watching Transformer 2. Blah. He used to be cute and now he's got that old hot man kinda look. YUMMY.
Oooh new steinlager edge. Want to try.
Anyway I was talking about winter. So since I have a few weeks I made a list of things I want to do. Do you want to know? Why, you really really do? OKAY !
+ exercise: because everyone gets fat in winter. And being in archi is really not good for my back. So I will need to be more flexible in order for my bones to not collapse very soon.
+ sewing: I have a million things to fix up and resize and make. Which i haven't started yet. Don't worry, I'll get to it soon..........
+ save money: which is contradicting to my next bullet point
+ shop: I want a new phone and I am planning on using my fabric voucher because i hear fabric is on sale and and and I want the country road shoes ! Yum
+ blog and cy more: pshshtt yeah good luck
+ read: I plan on finishing it. Finally.
There you go. Bahaha.
Section: Nicole
And there, a section about Nicole. LOL okay jokes. Okay I'm gonna talk about Nicole. Wow feels like Edmund should be here reading this. But that would be weird because then he would know we make fun of him. Omgsh omgsh. Anyway, what I realised about Nicole today is, how much she suits the bum look. Yeah it should be how she looks everyday, no? lololol. I THINK SO YEAH.
Man it's cold. It's 12 degrees. Aha.
I'd put a picture in but I can't be bothered. Hm. So Ill give you this:
Really into him, again, at the moment. After watching Transformer 2. Blah. He used to be cute and now he's got that old hot man kinda look. YUMMY.5.13.2009
하루종일졸려
I don't know if I should just keep taking so much caffeine, but then without it I'll need regular sleep and I cant have that if I want things done on time and I NEED things done on time so there's really nothing I can do about not drinking caffeine....
ARCHI IS KILLING ME
Actually.
I'm up 4:40am writing a complaint about it to myself because I got bored of doing my assignment.
I don't know if it's the coldness or the body being tired due to lack of sleep and inappropriate posture or the workload or the assignments being due soon but today about 7 ish hours ago I thought for the first time that I wanted to quit, for a while at least. And that maybe this was too challenging for me afterall.
It's only first year and it's definitely not going to get any easier as I go but I'll get used to it and it'll seem more familiar and easier right? But then at the same time I fear getting used to it because that means having to give up sleep and healthy eating and all that crap. Maybe it's just impossible and a selfish mindset to want to balance both.
I guess it's fun.
No it's definitely fun when I'm really into it.
Except tech.
UGH I HATE TECH.
I'm sleepy. But kind of awake. Next week it'll get tougher. 24 hours in a day is not enough. I work better in the day, I wish the day was longer. Omgsh I need summer. The cold is just making me want to cuddle up next to a heater and sleep. ALL DAY.
I WANT TO SLEEP ALL DAY.
미친다 정말 ㅋㅋㅋ
ARCHI IS KILLING ME
Actually.
I'm up 4:40am writing a complaint about it to myself because I got bored of doing my assignment.
I don't know if it's the coldness or the body being tired due to lack of sleep and inappropriate posture or the workload or the assignments being due soon but today about 7 ish hours ago I thought for the first time that I wanted to quit, for a while at least. And that maybe this was too challenging for me afterall.
It's only first year and it's definitely not going to get any easier as I go but I'll get used to it and it'll seem more familiar and easier right? But then at the same time I fear getting used to it because that means having to give up sleep and healthy eating and all that crap. Maybe it's just impossible and a selfish mindset to want to balance both.
I guess it's fun.
No it's definitely fun when I'm really into it.
Except tech.
UGH I HATE TECH.
I'm sleepy. But kind of awake. Next week it'll get tougher. 24 hours in a day is not enough. I work better in the day, I wish the day was longer. Omgsh I need summer. The cold is just making me want to cuddle up next to a heater and sleep. ALL DAY.
I WANT TO SLEEP ALL DAY.
미친다 정말 ㅋㅋㅋ
5.08.2009
5.06.2009
1초에한방울
할말이 없어서 발끝을 봤더니한방울씩 물방울이 멀어져 가고있다
눈물 한방울이 부서질때 마다
눈물 한방울이 부서질때 마다
내마음도 조각처럼 부서져 가네
가지마 가지마 가지마
이말 한마디 마저
꺼낸다는게 어려운거야
이제우린 그런 사인걸
떠나는 마지막 네모습
너무 보고싶지만
일그러진 얼굴 조차 창피한 사이
일초에 한방울 남겨진 눈물이
우리에게 남아있는 시간의 전부겠지
조금만 천천히 흐르면 안될까
눈물마저 멈춰지면 어떻게 할까
가지마 가지마 가지마
이말 한마디 마저
꺼낸다는게 어려운거야
이제우린 그런 사인걸
떠나는 마지막 네모습
너무 보고싶지만
일그러진 얼굴 조차 창피한 사이
이말 한마디 마저
꺼낸다는게 어려운거야
이제우린 그런 사인걸
떠나는 마지막 네모습
너무 보고싶지만
일그러진 얼굴 조차 창피한 사이
5.05.2009
Wow I'm back
Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry....
Eheheheheheheheh, wow it's been like a month since I last posted huh? I try not to (but I don't really try not to) but I keep doing this, ~__~ everytime, I'm like this time I'll post more regularly and not let this die...
But thanks to Jessie's nagging ! I'm gonna try a little harder ! Because she and Cole seem to check regularly and for those two (and more) I shall write.
Anyway, getting back to my life, I've been rather busy with school and other things. Since my last post, I went MT with archi peoples to ... Omgsh I forgot... Yeah it doesn't really matter, it was just somewhere quite close but in the west coast of Auckland, the weather wasn't that great and when we were waterballoon fighting you could die from the coldness but that's just me really, heheh. Hmm let's see, and we played a lotta games and things, and it was a good chance to get to know the archis, including people from year levels other than first year, which I guess is pretty important for archi especially because you end up living at the studio and you see so much of each other you might as well like each other : P
This is gonna be a long long post.
So MT was in the first week of the holidays and in the second week I originally planned to do some work but of course that never works, but I did manage to get a very tiny little fraction done. GAH I gotta stop procrastinating. I promise I will do at least a quarter of my tech assignment riiiight after I finish writing this. I SWEAR !!!!!!!!! sigh. But yeah, I procrastinated a bit with the last media assignment and because of that I rushed it and it wasn't satisfactory at all. UGH.
THEREFORE, I'm trying to be more organised and play less these days, but things around me can be so distracting.
Man I needa buy a coat. I can't wear double layers of jumpers all year because I look effing fat ~__~
Oh I also gotta go shopping at Fabric OMGSH YAY ><>
Speaking of, it was my 19th birthday 2 days ago and I had a get together thing the night before, I was so so happy heheheheh. I have such great friends +___+ I invited archi friends as well and they said very nice things about my friends, : D YOU GUYS GREAT. I LOVE YOU GUYS. YOU GUYS BEST.
Oh oh also in the holidays, Zoe and Ky and I finally got the envelope tattoos. FINALLY
And heyyy, this is my media assignment. It's an archive of different ways to create images or drawings. You're meant to slide it out and it goes around and out... heheheh well the concept is quite cute but because it's so big (it's A2) you gotta really be careful not to like.. wear out the corners or get caught on something and rip it or whatever. Also the black case part is made of 2mm board and it's too weak... it was falling apart half an hour before hand in and I'm sure it broke again after hand in. Damn. Anyway here it is closed:
Okay, I think this is long enough for now? heheheheh HAPPY JESSIE?! ^^ Well, thanks for nagging me.
4.01.2009
1. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
Closed.
2. Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?
Totally. I collect them and never use them.
3. Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?
I used to obssessively tuck them in, but now i don't care so much.
4. Have you ever stolen a street sign before?
Nai. Let's steal the taiko one nicole ^^
5. Do you like to use post-it notes?
Yes but I never see them around so I don't use them a lot, but if they were just lying on my desk i would.
6. Do you cut out coupons but then never use them?
YES FUCK.
7. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees?
bees.
8. Do you have freckles?
No.
9. Do you always smile for pictures?
Yes but not when self-cam-ing : P
10. What is your biggest pet peeve?
Fobs. Asian asian girls.
11. Do you ever count your steps when you walk?
Never...
12. Have you ever peed in the woods?
I think so.
13. What about pooped in the woods?
Nai.
14. Do you ever dance even if theres no music playing?
All the time. Whenever I'm with Rachel we can always break into Gee, without even singing.
15. Do you chew your pens and pencils?
Always. Every single one of them.
16. How many people have you slept with this week?
Let me count... None.
17. What size is your bed?
single queen....
18. What is your Song of the week?
Beyonce - Halo. OMGZ <3
19. Is it okay for guys to wear pink?
Totally. I want MG to wear pink dress shirts. He wants to also, it's not me forcing him to...
20. Do you still watch cartoons?
YES. Adult swim ftw. I wanna watch more anime but I HAVE NO TIME
21. Whats your least favorite movie?
Vanilla Sky. It was shit fuck.
22. Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?
Up your ass
23. What do you drink with dinner?
Water.
24. What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
I am forced to dip it in ketchup or sweet chilli sauce by slurp but i dont really like either. I like it by itself.
25. What is your favorite food?
NOODLES. Not instant.
26. What movies could you watch over and over and still love?
27. Last person of the opposite sex you kissed/kissed you?
MG
28. Last person of the same sex you kissed/kissed you?
Coley
29. Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?
Depends
30. When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?
2weeks ago. I should be writing back... After crit week I promise...
31. Can you change the oil on a car?
HUh
32. Ever gotten a speeding ticket?
NOh
33. Ran out of gas?
Yes, but it wasnt my fault. I told my mom to fuel up but she kept saying, i can go a bi more, a bit more, and then we didn't.
34. Favorite kind of sandwich?
Anything with onion, ham, cheese in it.
35 Best thing to eat for breakfast?
Sausage and egg mcmuffin and HASHBROWN.
36. What is your usual bedtime?
Ranges from 10:30 to 1:30
37. Are you lazy?
Sometimes
38. When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween?
When I was a kid, I didn't know about halloween.
39. What is your Chinese astrological sign?
Horse
40. How many languages can you speak?
korean english. bit of french and japanese
41. Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
Nai
42..Which are better legos or lincoln logs?
What are lincoln logs?
43. Are you stubborn?
Very.
44. Who is better...Leno or Letterman?
I don't know Leno but I don't like Letterman
45. Ever watch soap operas?
bits of it
46. Afraid of heights?
Nai
47. Sing in the car?
Always.
48. Dance in the shower?
Maybe...
49. Dance in the car?
Always.
50. Ever used a gun?
Nai
51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?
When I was around 10
52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?
No. They're awesome.
53. Is Christmas stressful?
Nope, I don't do much for it.
54. Ever eat a pierogi?
Nai.
55. Favorite type of fruit pie?
.....berries?
56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
Fashion designer.
57. Do you believe in ghosts?
Nai.
58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?
All the time.
59. Take a vitamin daily?
Nai. Useless !
60. Wear slippers?
Yes.
61. Wear a bath robe?
I REALLY WANT TO.
62. What do you wear to bed?
Lately, really bum shorts, french trip shirt and MGs hoody
63. First concert?
in 2002. Korea. Various artists.
64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?
I want to visit a walmart
65. Nike or Adidas?
I no like adidas.
66.Cheetos Or Fritos?
cheetos
67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?
Sunflower seeds.
68. Ever hear of the group Tres Bien?
Nai,
69. Ever take dance lessons?
Yesh.
70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?
Something in music/art/design. I will never marry a person with a boring job.
71. Can you curl your tongue?
yee
72. Ever won a spelling bee?
Nai.
73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?
Yes?
74. Own any record albums?
Nai.
75. Own a record player?
Nai.
76. Regularly burn incense?
nai.
77. Ever been in love?
yesh.
78. Who would you like to see in concert?
paramore.
79. What was the last concert you saw?
2 yrs ago
80.Hot tea or cold tea?
depends
81.Tea or coffee?
coffee
82. Sugar or snickerdoodles?
Neither
83.Can you swim well?
Sure
84.Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?
yee
85. Are you patient?
Not very.
86. DJ or band, at a wedding?
Band
87.Ever won a contest?
Yesh.
88. Ever have plastic surgery?
No
89. Which are better black or green olives?
both.
90.Can you knit or crochet?
crochet
91. Best room for a fireplace?
big room
92. Do you want to get married?
yes
93. If married, how long have you been married?
yes
94. Who was your HS crush?
Many.
95. Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way?
Babies do that because they have no other way of communication
96. Do you have kids?
Yes. BT
97. Do you want kids?
yes
98. Whats your favorite color?
Red. Orangey red. Pinkish red. Red.
99. Do you miss anyone right now?
I miss my bed. Oh. and mg... : P 장난이야, 사랑해돼지야.
100. Did you watch, Next Great American Band on FOX?
no.
Closed.
2. Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?
Totally. I collect them and never use them.
3. Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?
I used to obssessively tuck them in, but now i don't care so much.
4. Have you ever stolen a street sign before?
Nai. Let's steal the taiko one nicole ^^
5. Do you like to use post-it notes?
Yes but I never see them around so I don't use them a lot, but if they were just lying on my desk i would.
6. Do you cut out coupons but then never use them?
YES FUCK.
7. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees?
bees.
8. Do you have freckles?
No.
9. Do you always smile for pictures?
Yes but not when self-cam-ing : P
10. What is your biggest pet peeve?
Fobs. Asian asian girls.
11. Do you ever count your steps when you walk?
Never...
12. Have you ever peed in the woods?
I think so.
13. What about pooped in the woods?
Nai.
14. Do you ever dance even if theres no music playing?
All the time. Whenever I'm with Rachel we can always break into Gee, without even singing.
15. Do you chew your pens and pencils?
Always. Every single one of them.
16. How many people have you slept with this week?
Let me count... None.
17. What size is your bed?
single queen....
18. What is your Song of the week?
Beyonce - Halo. OMGZ <3
19. Is it okay for guys to wear pink?
Totally. I want MG to wear pink dress shirts. He wants to also, it's not me forcing him to...
20. Do you still watch cartoons?
YES. Adult swim ftw. I wanna watch more anime but I HAVE NO TIME
21. Whats your least favorite movie?
Vanilla Sky. It was shit fuck.
22. Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?
Up your ass
23. What do you drink with dinner?
Water.
24. What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
I am forced to dip it in ketchup or sweet chilli sauce by slurp but i dont really like either. I like it by itself.
25. What is your favorite food?
NOODLES. Not instant.
26. What movies could you watch over and over and still love?
27. Last person of the opposite sex you kissed/kissed you?
MG
28. Last person of the same sex you kissed/kissed you?
Coley
29. Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?
Depends
30. When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?
2weeks ago. I should be writing back... After crit week I promise...
31. Can you change the oil on a car?
HUh
32. Ever gotten a speeding ticket?
NOh
33. Ran out of gas?
Yes, but it wasnt my fault. I told my mom to fuel up but she kept saying, i can go a bi more, a bit more, and then we didn't.
34. Favorite kind of sandwich?
Anything with onion, ham, cheese in it.
35 Best thing to eat for breakfast?
Sausage and egg mcmuffin and HASHBROWN.
36. What is your usual bedtime?
Ranges from 10:30 to 1:30
37. Are you lazy?
Sometimes
38. When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween?
When I was a kid, I didn't know about halloween.
39. What is your Chinese astrological sign?
Horse
40. How many languages can you speak?
korean english. bit of french and japanese
41. Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
Nai
42..Which are better legos or lincoln logs?
What are lincoln logs?
43. Are you stubborn?
Very.
44. Who is better...Leno or Letterman?
I don't know Leno but I don't like Letterman
45. Ever watch soap operas?
bits of it
46. Afraid of heights?
Nai
47. Sing in the car?
Always.
48. Dance in the shower?
Maybe...
49. Dance in the car?
Always.
50. Ever used a gun?
Nai
51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?
When I was around 10
52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?
No. They're awesome.
53. Is Christmas stressful?
Nope, I don't do much for it.
54. Ever eat a pierogi?
Nai.
55. Favorite type of fruit pie?
.....berries?
56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
Fashion designer.
57. Do you believe in ghosts?
Nai.
58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?
All the time.
59. Take a vitamin daily?
Nai. Useless !
60. Wear slippers?
Yes.
61. Wear a bath robe?
I REALLY WANT TO.
62. What do you wear to bed?
Lately, really bum shorts, french trip shirt and MGs hoody
63. First concert?
in 2002. Korea. Various artists.
64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?
I want to visit a walmart
65. Nike or Adidas?
I no like adidas.
66.Cheetos Or Fritos?
cheetos
67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?
Sunflower seeds.
68. Ever hear of the group Tres Bien?
Nai,
69. Ever take dance lessons?
Yesh.
70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?
Something in music/art/design. I will never marry a person with a boring job.
71. Can you curl your tongue?
yee
72. Ever won a spelling bee?
Nai.
73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?
Yes?
74. Own any record albums?
Nai.
75. Own a record player?
Nai.
76. Regularly burn incense?
nai.
77. Ever been in love?
yesh.
78. Who would you like to see in concert?
paramore.
79. What was the last concert you saw?
2 yrs ago
80.Hot tea or cold tea?
depends
81.Tea or coffee?
coffee
82. Sugar or snickerdoodles?
Neither
83.Can you swim well?
Sure
84.Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?
yee
85. Are you patient?
Not very.
86. DJ or band, at a wedding?
Band
87.Ever won a contest?
Yesh.
88. Ever have plastic surgery?
No
89. Which are better black or green olives?
both.
90.Can you knit or crochet?
crochet
91. Best room for a fireplace?
big room
92. Do you want to get married?
yes
93. If married, how long have you been married?
yes
94. Who was your HS crush?
Many.
95. Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way?
Babies do that because they have no other way of communication
96. Do you have kids?
Yes. BT
97. Do you want kids?
yes
98. Whats your favorite color?
Red. Orangey red. Pinkish red. Red.
99. Do you miss anyone right now?
I miss my bed. Oh. and mg... : P 장난이야, 사랑해돼지야.
100. Did you watch, Next Great American Band on FOX?
no.
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