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새삼스럽게 느낀거지만, 벌써 18일, 거의 3주정도 되가네. 어떻게보면 시간 엄청빨리간거 같으면서도 아직 남은 시간을 생각하면 별거아니지..
니가 군인아저씨라고 생각하니까 징그럽다. 상상도안가. ㅋㅋ 이제 적응좀 했겠지?
잘지내고있어야하는데 ㅎㅎ.





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아 완전공주같아 ㅠㅠ
나날이 예뻐지는 장앙앙.
저머리하고나서부터 이미지 관리하는거 같아, 카메라앞에서 앙앙거리지도 않더라 이제.
쳇. 난 앙앙우영이 좋았는데 ㅠ

저거 폴라로이드 카메라 가꼬싶으다.
저놈에 비하면 내꺼 완전 괴물같이 생겼어. ㅎㅎ 우씨.

오후두시아가들 너무좋아ㅠ
허우적.

once again

sitting in the dark listening to the thud of the bundles of newspaper. 4:32am. UHGH. I'd like to sleep like a normal person please.

Looks a bit like Nicole can't get to sleep so easy either, she keeps turning in bed, or maybe she's just annoyed from the sound of my typing. Ehehhe..

I guess I shouldn't type then. Hmmm what should I do....................

I want his headphones. Very cute.


Edit: I decided to update the blog header and stuff : ) me likey, you like? 5:11am
Edit: 아맞다, 오늘은 준수생일ㅋ생축. 7:19am

photos with a hop

nicole would not wake up and I wanna go out for some foooood T__T
So I got bored and photoshopped some photos. I only did 6 cus I don't have a mouse and it's really annoying to photoshop with touch pad T___T

I want fooooood

ridiculous

The street light just turned off and it is now 7:03am. It is fucking impossible trying to get to sleep starting from around 3:30 ~ 4:00am because that's when the streets in front of the apartment starts waking up. At around 2am-ish it's actually so quiet I think to myself wowzee is this hk? but then the newspaper delivery people start unpacking stacks and stacks of newspaper, unloading from the truck with its engine still on and throwing them on the ground and playing with their craft knife while cutting the bundles whilst talking loudly among themselves. And in front of the apartment just happens to be the spot to do that in.

When they're done it's the food suppliers that deliver to restaurants. Again from the trucks with fucking loud engines and the ones that go beep beep beep beep beep beep beep when they're reversing. And they keep reversing. Meanwhile the trams start running again. It just happens that the tram track/ station is right in front of the apartment as well. Convenient? I fucking agree.

Okay. The mother fucking streetlight that stare down into my eyes all night. Nicole has kindly fashioned a cover on the blinds (out of post it notes) where the glare is but it still lights the whole room bright orange. The more annoying thing is that there is two sets of blinds and the left ones which is further below the bed faces up, so no light from above and outside the window actually gets into the room, however the ones that are right next to the bed face downwards, and when you try to turn it over it reaches its limit hence making it impossible to do so.

Our apartment is on the first floor. All the noise described above feels as if it is happening right by your ear when you're lying down in the bed with your eyes closed. Lovely huh.

All the more reasons to miss new zealand so much. Plus it's really getting cold, well, either that or I just have no winter clothes.

+____+

PHUCK IM BORED.

my face hurts.

head hurts from SLEEPING too much

ok me lazy

So. I sort of concluded that I was gonna put of blogging until I was reunited with my laptop but then I remembered I like blogging ^^ and more importantly it was reading A's blog entries that triggered it and I felt the need to say:

A public thank you, a big fat one, to all of MG's and my friends.



He wouldn't really like me to share but it's rather obvious that he develops some kind of a fear, mainly to do with the relationship between him and his friends outside of army. You can't blame him, you know, lost contacts and for such a long period of time. For the purpose of comforting him there and then, was to tell him that no matter what happens I'll be there for him so he really has not a lot to worry about. But I was to thoughtless to consider the truth, which was that they care for him as much as I do.

Wow I'm getting too cheesy for my liking. But you all know what I mean...



One particular story about a girl named Angular touched me so I wanted to express some sort of. Blab. I dunno. Thanks A.


And to you. I sincerely hope you remember what I said to you and understand how I'm feeling. In reality it's more like wanting to know how you're doing and if you're adjusting well at all, if you've made any friends etc. But these things I can guess you're doing pretty well because you're perfectly capable of all those things. But more importantly what bothers me is if you're having any doubts. These thoughts can drive you mad if there isn't anyone to lead you out of it and I have no way of making sure of that for now because let's face it, I can't even be sure if my letter is on the way to Korea.

For now, I'll just be waiting as I said I'll be.


spending time feels crazy. I feel like I'm only waiting again. This is so natural to me that I don't realise what I'm doing until I've wasted a great amount of time waiting for the next thing on the calendar, which actually is "getting on the plane to nz" and that's 2 weeks away. And it feels ironic because I've done exactly the same sitting at home, for the day to fly here and I can't wait to go back. I kind of feel like I need to apologise to hk. @__@ okay I may be going a little nuts from too much sleep/lack of sleep.

The thing with sleep, in fact, I don't know which it is anymore because, I sleep too much as I lack sleep from not sleeping, and I would have not slept due to too much sleep previously and then it just goes around in a loop. I don't know how to fix it, I just kind of have this idea that it'll be fixed when I get home. Which in reality it probably won't.

I miss too many people at once.

Highlight of the hk trip.

01.01.2010

there are no words.