I was just lying down to go to sleep but I failed as it's only been 14 hours since I got up from sleeping and I am nowhere near sleepy enough to sleep again, yet. Anyway, what I wanted to say was that as I was lying, I started to ponder about things I have abandoned, things to which I have sort of "assigned" excuses of abandonment. For instance I am not caring about any Studylink crap just because I have no access to my mail. But soon I realise this is no more than an excuse because I can always contact my mother/father/sister and ask them if any Studylink crap was in the mail. It is merely because I don't want to deal with it while I'm away.
For similar reasons, I had abandoned my blog. I blame the "microblog"
You know, like Twitter.
Usually I come write here with a thought and then the thought extends as I write (blabber) on. But with Twitter, the thought just stops there as a single tweet. Maybe I'm using it wrong.
Whether this thought on how microblogging has affected my blog is very useless, I needed to write so I could feel like I've done something today. I miss having to work for something. It's always around 2 months into holidays that I start feeling this way. Surely I have things that needs done and things I planned because I want to do them, but without timely pressure it's not getting anywhere.
When people around your age with similar interests to you start doing something "real," for many reasons like achieving a personal goal/dream or persuing a career, it gets you thinking about where you are. How far down you are towards what you want. This should motivate you. In my case the motivation comes a little after a mild depression.
I don't know how to express 우울함 in English without using the word depression or depressed, as there's a difference between 우울함 and 우울증. I don't even think I'm capable of getting depression, I worry but I worry too little.
Hitting 홍대 tomorrow. Planning to discover more (better) shops.
